I had been looking forward to it for a while now, and by a while I mean about 2 years. I don't really know why but I liked the idea of saying "I'm 40".
Anyway I've been 40 for 6 days now and it's been somewhat of an anticlimax. I just don't feel any different. I don't know why I thought I would, I never really feel older I just look older. I still feel about 20 which isn't necessarily a good thing.
I often look at women or pictures of women of "a certain age" (I say that because I'm hopeless at estimating peoples age) and I think they have wisdom, maturity and I'm waiting to feel like that.
Will it ever happen? I don't know and I'm not sure I really even care...................
Kurtis is nearly 4 and I recently noticed he has lost his little pot belly. My baby is growing up and I know I'm biased but he really is a delight to parent. He is in the process of dropping his day sleep. Some days he doesn't sleep but on the days he does its still 2 to 3 hours. Today he didn't sleep and while I shopped and lazed about at the Hot Springs with friends he spent the day at his grandparents. He wasn't interested in dinner and before I suggested it was close to bed time he lay down on the couch and said to me "Mum, I'm just going to have a little rest before I go to bed".
Oh my little buddy bear I do love you. xxxxxx
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